I suck. I lie, I fail people. I’m not good enough for any of you, I just let you all down. I’m just a liar and a waste of carbon and it’s fine that none of you want to see me. I don’t even wanna see myself. I stopped showing up to class. I was dropped from one and now maybe two classes. The other two im fine in I guess. I just haven’t wanted to to anything but lie down and rot away, it’s been like that for a long time. And at the same time this is a so fucking dramatic. Maybe I’m just lazy. I’m fine. Whatever. I have a shitstorm coming to me and I deserve it. I’m just angry and sad and depressed is all. Dying just seems appealing. I burden everyone and I’m disgusted with myself. I don’t want to let anyone down anymore. I don’t wanna hear that it gets better, this is all my doing as it is. It’s all my fault that I’m in this terrible mess. I just want to sleep forever. I have no passion or drive or goals anymore. All I do is lie and I know that’s not right. I just lie and let people down and I’ll never go anywhere in life so just let me die now. Kill me please. I don’t wanna be around anymore. I want to be dead. I don’t want to perceive or be aware or anything. I don’t want to be. I want it to be like I was never here. I want to have never been around. It’s not enough to die just once. I don’t ever want to have lived at all. You’d have all been better off.
Because I’ll be putting my teeth in your throat one way or another by the end of tonight; take that how you want.