I suck. I lie, I fail people. I’m not good enough for any of you, I just let you all down. I’m just a liar and a waste of carbon and it’s fine that none of you want to see me. I don’t even wanna see myself. I stopped showing up to class. I was dropped from one and now maybe two classes. The other two im fine in I guess. I just haven’t wanted to to anything but lie down and rot away, it’s been like that for a long time. And at the same time this is a so fucking dramatic. Maybe I’m just lazy. I’m fine. Whatever. I have a shitstorm coming to me and I deserve it. I’m just angry and sad and depressed is all. Dying just seems appealing. I burden everyone and I’m disgusted with myself. I don’t want to let anyone down anymore. I don’t wanna hear that it gets better, this is all my doing as it is. It’s all my fault that I’m in this terrible mess. I just want to sleep forever. I have no passion or drive or goals anymore. All I do is lie and I know that’s not right. I just lie and let people down and I’ll never go anywhere in life so just let me die now. Kill me please. I don’t wanna be around anymore. I want to be dead. I don’t want to perceive or be aware or anything. I don’t want to be. I want it to be like I was never here. I want to have never been around. It’s not enough to die just once. I don’t ever want to have lived at all. You’d have all been better off.